snapshots

2011-11-13T17:07:00.002+08:00

I am still surviving.

PW and promos have ended and I am still alive!
JC life is really hard :(

Now, I shall draft out my timetable and plan before I regret.
And I hope I won't die in Vietnam.
It's my first overseas CIP!

After a year, I realised people CAN have low EQ and I have no idea why.

2011-08-13T18:54:00.001+08:00

Life sucks.
Having severe menstrual cramp since morning.
Used to think that menstrual cramps are bearable.....
but now. it's so unbearable that I'm tearing because of the pain.

2011-08-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

What an asshole.

I don't understand how people can be so proud of and show off things that they didn't earn themselves.

2011-07-06T22:02:00.003+08:00

Somehow, people think that you have no feelings.
I'm already feeling very depressed and people just wanna rub salt into my wound.
Heartless people.
I hate you.
They are just trying to challenge your control of emotions.

2011-06-21T02:36:00.004+08:00

I'm damn stressed because of term exam.
I've been studying (maybe not like crazy) for at least every day,
but nothing seems to get into my brain.
It's as good as not studying.
Why is everything so difficult?!

I slacked quite a lot too..
Compared to the past.
But I don't feel guilty...
And I totally ignored my languages.
I'm so gonna screw up GP............

Shit I need to sleep.
Have lessons tomorrow :(
ARGH I hate waking up early.

I NEED to do well for my term exams.
But I just couldnt bring myself to study.
I'm just taking too many breaks while studying.
WAY TOO MANY.

2011-06-16T01:02:00.003+08:00

I realized I don't have a childhood.

I've dedicated my life to study, which does not promise me a future.
I don't have a past or a future, what am I?

I should just stop thinking so much
and trying so hard to find a purpose to everything.

2011-06-13T22:25:00.003+08:00

Okay I'll have to complete my biology online lecture today.
ONLINE LECTURE SUCKSSSSSSSS. LOL.

And I went shopping today.
I'm seriously broke.
HAHA.
我的宗旨就是，你永远不能靠一双拖鞋闯天下.
Or you just can't survive with a pair of slippers.
You NEED
flats, heels, sports shoes, etc. OKAY.

Excuses. But whatever.
I havent touched a single pie of school work today. hooray.

and I need an A for alevel chinese please.
I don't care about term exams.
Okay but still. if you wanna get A for alevel chinese
you first need to do so for term exam right -.-

2011-06-13T00:36:00.002+08:00

Okay I emailed my teacher a few days ago and I made a silly mistake while typing the email.
Just. With the month that I typed in.
It's just a mistake too silly to make.
Okay at least I realized it a few hours after I sent her the email.
But still.........
Argh.

Okay tomorrow's shopping day HAHAHA.
I hope I can wake up on time though.
Meaning I'll have to sleep like now.
Holiday is just making me sleeping 10 full hours every night. I suck.
I need to revise.
Okay tomorrow shall be the day I put aside all school work and shit related to school.

and I just watched twilight on tv!
Made me think that we should not live in fantasy.
HAHA.

2011-06-12T02:27:00.001+08:00

My English sucks. But I can't fail GP.
I mustn't fail. At least a C please!

Okay i'm half way through my holidays.
AND IT'S COMING TO AN END. SHIT!
I don't think I achieved a lot.........
zzzzzz.

AND I'M GOING SHOPPING ON MONDAY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
TIME TO SPLURGE YEAH.

2011-06-10T17:34:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I'M STRESSED!
BECAUSE OF CHEMISTRY CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!
IT'S NOT LIKE MATHS MAN.
BUT WHY AM I STRESSED!
I CAN'T THINK WHEN I'M STRESSSSSED.

SHIT I HATE TERM EXAM.

2011-06-08T12:49:00.002+08:00

可能是老了吧
Find it harder and harder to memorize stuff.
Esp. biology...
Shit, I must do well for term exams.

and I HATE PW.

Okay. There's class outing today...........
And I'm starting to sleep at 3am now. and wake up like so late everyday.
OMG I DUN WANT TO.
BUT I MUST COMPLETE MY WORK BEFORE I CAN SLEEP.
Even though I didnt most of the time.
Argh. hate revising.

2011-06-04T00:38:00.003+08:00

Let me tell you a very embarrassing stuff.

I have been setting my phone alarm to 6am since Monday.
But till this morning, I NEVER WAKE UP AT 6AM.
I'd just press snooze, stop, whatever to stop that alarm and continue sleeping.
So I ended up waking up at 8am+

And I slacked through the week :(
Didn't follow strictly to my timetable.
wth. shit myself.

I hate revising for exams.
It's the most boring stuff.
Than anything else.
I'd rather study and learn new stuff
than reading the same thing again and again like it's never gonna end.
ARGH.
If only term exam is not graded. LOL LOL.

Okay shit. I have been sleeping at 10pm+ for the past 5 days!!!!
BUT NOW. OMG 12.47am!!!!
ARGH. All because I wanted to revise more today.
I. SHALL. REVISE. MORE. TOMORROW.
AND FINISH UP ALL THOSE LOUSY/BORING/STUPID STUFFS I DIDNT COMPLETE THIS WEEK.

2011-05-30T22:42:00.003+08:00

After a day of slacking,
I comfort myself by saying "It's good to let your hair down once in a while."
But... It has become too often. :(

TIME TO BUCK UP!!!!

2011-05-30T10:00:00.001+08:00

Now that summer camp is over, it's time to work hard for term exams.
Shit I need to obtain my goals!
I can't fail GP,
I must get A for my Chinese!!!!!!!!!!
And some As here and there.
AND ECONS. GOSH.
FAILED LIKE SHIT!!!!!!

Okay. Summer Camp...
Damn tired.
It took me 1 full day to rest.
I kept sleeping yesterday.
Okay. I have yet to do my timetable!
AHHHH PROCRASTINATION SHIT MYSELF.
ALOT OF THINGS TO DO!!!!!
AND CHINESE A LEVEL ORAL IS RIGHT AFTER TERM EXAMS!!!

Okay I'm mad.
Time to work hard.

2011-05-22T18:00:00.002+08:00

Finally done with chem and gp project!!!!
And I no longer have to worry about NAPFA for the rest of the year HAHAHAHAHA.
Time to slack.
But I'll suffer during mass PE LOL LOL LOL.
I'm just not fit. And I'm damn lazy -.-

And yeah... There's still PW :(
It sucks.
I don't even feel like doing it.

And. Homework seems never-ending.
The moment I finish this tutorial,
the lecturer will finish the chapter and I need to do another tutorial again.
And now? Past-year chem term exams. :(
It's really depressing when every week, the TIME magazine never fails to come.
Because I didnt even start on the previous issuessss.
Okay!
I SHALL.
DO MY BIOLOGY TUTORIAL.
PRACTISE MY CHINESE ORAL FOR TOMORROW.
AND PW PROJECT!!!!!
FOR TODAY.
I SHALL SLEEP AT 12 MIDNIGHT TODAY!!!!
I HOPE.

The stomach of homework is like an bottomless pit (无底洞),
never gonna fill it up.
Okay this is stupid.

2011-05-18T21:27:00.004+08:00

Freak. Damn stressed now.

Have chem and gp projects, pw and smc to do today.
and I'm feeling damn sleepy now.
Gp and chem projects due this fri.
smc today
pw next fri.
what the shit.

pw gives me the most headache.
no one seems to be bothered by this.
If it's not an A levels subject, I will totally ignore this
given such circumstances.
I dun care if i fail it or what. (if it's only an internal subject)
Life sucks.

Oh ya. I retook my 2.4km run today.
I improved my 1minute. Which means I got a D HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
SILVER. NO MORNING TRAININGS ^^

2011-05-16T21:09:00.002+08:00

Looking at the number of things I have to do for the day, I guess tonight will be a tough fight. :(
Since I have CCA for the whole of tomorrow.
Damn sad.
I have so many homework and projects to complete.
And the deadlines are so near.
Argh.
I. Will. Persevere.

Oh yah.
I failed my 2.4km. Gonna retake on Wednesday. :( :( :( :(
I got an E. And it's a fail in AC. wth.

2011-05-15T19:10:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's 2.4km (most probably)
Please, let me pass!!!!
And passing means getting a D cus I need at least a Silver
for me to skip all the morning trainings!
arghhhh.

first time i'm so serious abt napfa.
LOL. Fail = Morning trainings = wake up early = sleep early = cannot study at night = cannot slack in the afternoon = no afternoon naps!
JUST LOOK AT THE CONSEQUENCES.

Okay I still have my environment package to read.
I hate GP CTs. :(
I need to do another math tutorial cus my tutor is almost done going through the tutorial I just completed.
And yes, I've lagged behind tutorials.
Like for Math and Chem :(
For chem, I didnt the whole tutorial that my tutor has just GONE THROUGH.
ARGH I HATE MYSELF AND TODAY'S SUNDAY ALR.
TUESDAY IS JUST OCCUPIED BY CCA :(

I must do well for my term exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-14T18:12:00.000+08:00

When you are at your peak, there will always be an invisible hand that pulls you down. :(

2011-05-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

I HATE MEDIOCRE WORK!!!!
DAMN IT!
CALL ME DEMANDING OR WHAT! I JUST HATE IT.
IT'S EITHER YOU DON'T DO OR YOU DO IT PROPERLY AND PERFECTLY!!!!!
ZZZZ!
It is always the person who cares the most that will suffer the most.

*PISSED OFF*

Okay...
I'm here to boast about my NAPFA man.
Luckily we did 5-station on Wednesday instead of 2.4km run
because I wasn't ready for it. YET!
We ran a round to warm up and I was nearly died.
Plus under the hot sun :(
I will just faint.

OKAY.
I GOT TWO A, ONE C and TWO D!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA.
DAMN GOOD OKAY OKAY I TELL YOU.
IT IS LIKE 10 + 3 + 4 = 17 POINTS NOW.
And when I was telling my dad about my NAPFA results,
my mum sort of didnt hear it's for NAPFA
and thought it's my CT results LOL.
and she was like asking
WHAT! HOW COME GOT TWO Ds!!!!
But when I told her it's NAPFA,
she gave me that face that says EXPECTED.
Okay whatever.

The point is.
I got two A! HAHAHAHAHA.
That's situps and
GUESS WHAT!
IT'S NOT SIT & REACH.
IT'S SHUTTLE RUN!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA. Okay I don't believe it but i really ran 11.2s!!!
A just-pass for an A.
LOL LOL LOL. I got a D for sit and reach anyway, probably the lowest in class :(
I'm just not flexible. I got 36cm LOL.
AND I DID 43 SITUPS HAHAHAHAHA
I BROKE MY OWN RECORD I THINK.

Others were shit la okay.
But the thing worth mentioning is my SBJ.
I jumped like 150+ last year
but now, i jumped 168cm!
HAHAHA I can't believe it too. I can actually jump pass one whole me.
Not that I'm short okay.
and i did 11 inclined pull-ups.
I guess they are not standard ones. Sort of. LOL.
HAHAHA.

SO this means I must do well for my 2.4km or else everything is just so wasted!
I must run this weekend!
HAHAHAHA
I FEEL SO MUSCULAR NOW (LOL!)
HAHAHA

Okay I have to do my GP essay :(
Slept just now.
HAHA.

2011-05-09T06:45:00.001+08:00

I just hope this year can fly pass.
So that PW will be gone forever.
I know that I will probably get a B or a C now...
But I don't care.
Instead of putting so much effort trying to get an A for PW,
I would rather spend more time on other subjects and get A for them.
There's nothing I can do when PW does not only depend on individual effort.
If it does, I won't be feeling this way.

2011-05-04T21:17:00.002+08:00

What the hell. I hate this shit.
I just freaking hate projects.
It's just unfair... :(

I miss 4E3...
And I miss the pre-olevel days when everyone is so keen to learn
and serious abt work.
But everything is so different now
and I can never get back to those days...

2011-04-27T23:00:00.005+08:00

Shit, I have like two tests on Friday.
And I'm still rushing my tutorials -.-
ARGH. I have to write Chinese compo tomorrow
and I have totally no idea how to start/what to write.
AH SUCKS.
I hate narrative or personal recount.
It just didnt happen to me! So how am I supposed to write out a story
without loopholes?!
ZZ.

NAPFA is in week 8. I think.
I can't run. I can't do sit and reach. I can't do inclined pull-up.
But I can jump further than my height for the first time in my life!!!! (NOT BECAUSE I'M SHORT/HAVE SHRUNK)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I so going to fail this. :(

Okay. My grades are like shit now.
All my assignments. I mean most of them, the marks are like below my expectations.
Some are just-passed and below average.
And I seriously have no idea how to improve/where the problems are.
Time is never enough and
my body is never contented with the number of hours of sleep I gave it
and I am always sleepy..
I can't wait for the two long weekends ahead.

Lesson learnt: (finally I learn my lesson)
Never take a nap at NIGHT, thinking "I'll just sleep for a while, I won't sleep through the night."
That's real stupid. You'll just sleep like crazy until the next morning
and you wake up cursing yourself and feeling damn guilty for not doing what you planned to do.
Argh. This. Happened. To. Me. For. 394830482 times.
Often I didnt complete a single homework and had to use my break (WHICH IS DAMN SHORT) to do the more important ones.
Shit I hate myself.
I just hate the fact that we have to sleep every night
and not once a week.
Imagine just how much more time you will have.
But that's just impossible.

2011-04-25T20:04:00.002+08:00

I wanna pass my NAPFA, so badly.
I dont wanna go back to school to train on whatever days it is.
Seriously.
But I can't, with the dumb 2.4 km. I know I can't.
But I'll try.
Omg, it's week 6 already!
WTH MAN FREEEEAK.
NAPFA is on week 8!!!

ARGH.

才发现最大的敌人是睡眠 :(

2011-04-23T04:08:00.001+08:00

GOOD MORNING EVERYBODY.

I'm unhealthy :(

2011-04-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

When you are doing a project and nobody gives a shit, you're so dead.

Had chem prac today.
wth, my hands were so itchy after the experiment oh my gosh.
Though i did similar experiment during my sec school before,
but this time, the reaction is damn vigorous.
and acid got into my eyes for THREE TIMES.
damn dumb lol.
and i kept washing my eyes while measuring the temp change.
though the experiment was quite simple.
BUT WTH. MY EYES!
I don't wanna become blind.
shit man.

and yeah, I still have a lot of homework to do.
And projects. damn it. I hate projects. I just wanna work at my own pace.
ON MY OWN. argh.

2011-04-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

爱很大有你有我有他。
Gosh I love this song.

The fact that I went into ACJC does not make me less Chinese.

Okay whatever.

I'm so pissed off by someone.
Seriously, you are just wasting my precious time.
Like any other people, I only have 24 hours a day.
It's like not I have 48 hours for you to waste.
Damn.

AND I seriously dislike people who give me low quality work man.
it's either you don't do, or you do it well.

AH SHIT EVERYONE!!!

2011-04-19T22:20:00.004+08:00

I just had my dinner hahahahahhaa.
Okay I still have a lot of stuffs to do man.
Stayed until 7pm+ in the school today for CCA.
Logistics HAHA.
I'm finally admitting that I suck at craft work.
serious. oh my gosh.

argh. I'm the only one in the group who hasn't done anything for the project.
Z MAN. Okay I'm gonna do it now.

AND. I'M SO GOING TO USS THIS SATURDAY MAN.
It's like a damn popular place for couples -.-
But too bad, i'm not a lesbian.

OKAY BYE.

2011-04-17T18:04:00.002+08:00

Once again, I chionged all my commentaries for my articles.
HAHAHA.
Luckily I didnt wait till the next file check.
If not it will pile up like crazy and I will die due to lack of inspiration.
Gosh. I havent touched my projects yet.
SHIT!
Luckily there's no CT next week.
Or else I'll die man.
and there's Ecohouse next wednesday.
I'm in the Logistics! HAHAHAHA.
Just trying something new..
And partly because Lynn's committee head for Logistics. -.-

OKAY BYE.

2011-04-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired of this shit. I just wanna scream, cry, explode in pieces and DIE.

2011-04-14T02:57:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh. I suddenly have this urge to blog abt the
errr. gymnastic lessons for my PE.
Yeah today, or rather, yesterday was the first lesson of the whole gymnastic programme
Can't believe I did all the... stunts? LOL.
Whatever word it is.
Just. oh my gosh. I'm so going to get muscle aches again.
But it was quite fun to spend my 1h 20 minutes PE.
HAHAHAHA At least better than running under the hot sun until you die.

Okay I shouldn't be crapping right now.
When I NEED to complete my chem tutorial wth man man man.
And there's Chinese CT tomorrow.
Last test. Of the week.
HAHA. It's like O levels.
Pre-o levels I mean.
THERE'S CCA TOMORROW!!!!!

2011-04-13T20:03:00.003+08:00

I'm so stressed and pissed off now.
Dont talk to me or else I'll break your neck.
Just joking.

But seriously.

(HAHAHA RYAN HIGA!!!!!)

Okay I slept for two hours today I feel damn guilty now okay byebyebye.

BTW.
TODAY'S CURRENT AFFAIRS QUIZ WAS DAMN FUNNY
HAHAHAHA. I GOT DAMN HIGH FOR NO REASON. LOL.

2011-04-12T20:06:00.002+08:00

There are so many things on my mind right now which I can share with no one.
My to-do list seems never-ending and I'm exhausted.
I just wanna lie on my bed on an early night and get a peaceful sleep.
I dont wanna to be still rushing through my homework
when everyone else is asleep.
I guess that will only happen when I quit school.

It has come to a point whereby I have no idea if it's still a matter of getting used to JC life.
Or am I just not cut out for JC?
If perseverance is the answer,
I guess things will look simpler.

Had my first CT for the year.
And it's Math. Once again, I didnt manage to complete it.
I'm kinda depressed. Really.
But there are still GP and CL CT for the week.
And I have some CIP and CCA stuffs for the weekend as well.
Guess it will be a busy week.
But I'M LIKE SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE SURVEY THING THIS SAT!!!!
IT'S THE CIP THAT I SIGNED UP FOR.
HAHAHAHAHA.

OKAY BYE.
I need to sleep early today.
IT'S DAMN FREAKING UNHEALTHY TO SLEEP LATE.
I DONT WANNA DIE EARLY.

2011-04-09T18:43:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh I'm going mad.
Homework is piling up like mad!!!!!!!!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
Doing math. Seriously i hate graphs!
What's wrong with all these graphs!
Just out to torture me.
argh. Let's just stop learning graphs for the future chapters
Like it's not as simple as before.
Just flip the graph over the x-axis.
Now it's like flipping weird graphs all over the place!
WTH?! Okay it's just both axes.
BUT STILL. -.-

okay whatever.

2011-04-07T22:00:00.003+08:00

I hate myself.
For sleeping before I completed my work.
For starting to lag behind in Math tutorial.
For losing the touch to answer Biology structured questions.
For not revising enough.
For needing a life.
For everything.

One day shouldn't only have 24 hours.
Humans shouldn't sleep every day.

2011-04-06T23:29:00.003+08:00

Spent two hours on GP.
Wth. That sentence just looks so true to me.
How am I supposed to squeeze out two points on disagree?
Z. Damn stressed seriously.
and when CT starts next week.
SHIT!!!!!
If only I don't need to sleep at all.

I feel like starting on the gp/chem project.
But no one seems to care..

oh yeah.
There are like some cuts on my right fingers and palm.
No, I didn't commit suicide.
You can't die from that. I guess.
Whatever. The reason is kinda dumb haha.
But it's damn painful!!!! Especially when I had PE today and I had to do pushups!!!

2011-04-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

HAHA. My PI got accepted man.
Oh my gosh. And that's the reason why PW is the first homework
I did the moment I reach home.
And I'm done with it.
I didn't know we can't add footnote in a textbox!
LOL So I had to like, do my own footnote.

Hope my PW will be a good one. You know you know.

Okay. I'm starting to feel sleepy and I still have a lot of stuffs not done.

2011-04-03T12:09:00.002+08:00

跟别人比起来，我的生活道路并不崎岖。

I've been a good girl who has been collecting her articles for her resource file.
HAHA. But I haven't been writing commentaries for any of them. -.-
and history will repeat itself when I write all the commentaries at one go when
I need to submit my file for file check.

I just read today's Sunday Times.
And I especially like the article about the coming General Election.
It's about people going on holidays on the election day and are unable to vote.
I didn't know it's compulsory to vote OMG LOL LOL LOL.
HAHA ZERO COMMON KNOWLEDGE.
Okay, I like the cartoon.
DAMN CUTE.
I'm a person who pays slightly less attention to political stuffs
as compared to you-know-what.
I can only say... Everyone is different.

There are like three projects on my hands right now.
Havent really started on any yet.
And two of them are due this term. I dunno LOL.
and the last one is obviously PW.
I have zero motivation to even start doing it.

And I was reading my Biology textbook last night and this morning.
Wth, it's so wordy and definitely not my style.
ZZZZZZZZZ. Though I like the coloured pictures HAHAHA.
It cost me $69 okay! And it's at discounted price.
It's over a thousand pages HAHAHAHAHA....
My dad suggested that I tear a page of it and eat it every day.
and at the last page, I'm ready for A levels.
Yeah I'll try. When I'm despo.

HEHE. Time for more homework.
I FINISHED MY MATH TUTORIAL 5!!! HAHAHA
It's the first tutorial that ends in a page!!!!!! (that's why)
OKAY BYE.

2011-04-01T02:21:00.002+08:00

It's finally Friday!
If it doesnt come like now, I will die man.
Just finished my PI.
Put in a lot of effort on it!
SO PLEASE DONT REJECT MY IDEA!!!!!
*PRAY HARD*

I'm gonna collect cans tomorrow. HAHA.
and I signed up for the CIP thing, the survey one.
HAHA. OMG I'm like so excited for it now.
Cus I no experience in it. HAHAH THAT'S WHY IM TRYING.
And there's one famine camp? LOL.
30 hours without food. I think I'd probably die in less than 5 hours.
It doesnt matter if my blood glucose is high or not.
It matters if there is food going into my mouth or not.
HAHA.
OKAY.
I failed my Biology test....
I dont feel anything seriously.
argh, i'm gonna work hard.

and today there was this chinese oral recording thing.
HAHAHA It was damn funny listening to other people's recording.
and my own recording LOL.
I didnt know we had to record two passages then in the end
I spent all my time perfecting the first one.
HAHAHA.
Okay. I shall read my bio prac now.
There's no time for revision :(
I dont wanna fail another test.

2011-03-28T20:53:00.003+08:00

I told my mum just now that
one day, I'll go South Korea and see my IDOLSSSSS.
Then she 敷衍 me by saying "Okay okay..." -.-
I will okay!

I ran today. I mean, it's PE.
GOSH I WAS LAST TO RETURN AGAIN.
HAHA. I ran for like four rounds today.
But it's the lane 8 one okay, so it's bigger round.
I think it's still less than 2.4km.
Then, I sweat like crazy. It was real crazy.
I no longer have stitches. But now, I feel out of breath and my heart seems to cant withstand the run. I dont know. I'm just unfit.
AND IM LIKE GOING TO GYM TOMORROW HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
With Sherrill and Yj.
omg omg omg. I can't believe it.
I'm going to have fun tmr haha.
It's my second time visiting a gym! ^^

AND wednesday is the last day of LP :(
AWWW. I didnt take any photos w my mentees yet!
Hope they win seriously!
Though I was a bad mentor...
I was too boring for them hahaha.
nevermind, it's a good experience.
Can't believe I'm teaching man!
I'll miss them and
I'll miss skipping lunch to wait for them at concourse.

OKAY HOMEWORK.
"You better run run run run~"
I mean 2.4. HA.

2011-03-27T21:56:00.003+08:00

Some rants before I continue with my PI.
Sucks. I dont even KNOW what to do for that.
argh.
Even though I'm not lagging behind in terms of tutorials.
It seems like I dont have enough time every day.
It's like the moment I finish all the stuffs I need to do,
it would be like 2am or later
And worse still, I didnt finish them sometimes and I went to sleep.
and once you start lagging behind tutorial,
it would be damn difficult to catch up.

I wonder what time I will sleep when all the common tests start.
Sadly, they start but will never end.
I'm already so stressed now.
If tests come, I will go crazy.
I start to question my choice of going JC instead of the more popular choice of poly.
Sigh whatever, I'll just crap through my PI.
Seriously, what to do?!?!?!
I still have so many things to do!!!!!
And I still can't kick the habit of mine to slack and procrastinate and sleep like nobody's business.

2011-03-27T13:20:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty stressed up
cus I can't do Math.
argh. I can't say I'm good at Maths just because I took H2 Math.
like seriously...........
It has been a problem since secondary school la.
omg man!
I spent an hour doing one qn.
And I dont even know if my answers are right or not.

I'm losing a lot of hair and i'm going bald :(

2011-03-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

This week is a sleep-deprived one.
2am. the earliest time i slept this week.
sucks man im yawning every single minute.

and.
I'm an online stalker.
I feel like a pervert, ew.
LOL. I stalked sec school teachers too.
HAHAHA.
LIKE LOL LOL.
I know so many things abt them now.
Some were quite unexpected though.

okay I have a lot of homework for the weekend.

2011-03-22T19:05:00.004+08:00

I dont know if I should go for epop or not.
I like, kinda poor now.
After spending near two hundred on mnet. LOL.
but it's worth it seriously.
If suju is going for epop, I won't even hesitate.

I'm in love with yujun's big, disgusting bruise on her arm.
HAHAHAHAA.
IT'S DAMN GROSS!!!!!

Oh yeah, going temasek poly tomorrow to support
the ac ppl in some national cross country thing.
I dont know la.
I just know that I'm gonna miss my Biology lecture. :(
awwww. Every lecture is like so precious.
I'd crawl back to school for lectures if I'm ill man.

kay. im so hungry that i think im going to get gastric. LOL.
I WAS DAMN HUNGRY DURING MATH TUTORIAL I CAN'T EVEN PAY ATTENTION LOL.

2011-03-20T19:48:00.005+08:00

汗水是我努力的结晶。

I went jogging today again.
I jogged like 4 times more today man.
HAHA. dont be mistaken, it's not a lot. Because I started with one round the other day.
Was doing commentary for my GP newspaper articles just now.
I DIDNT KNOW WE HAVE TO DO IT MAN.
WTH I thought my job's over when i found all the articles.
shit me.
So I have to chiong 8 commentaries when there is seriously no crap for me to crap about.
I'm left with two. HAHA.
I wanted to do some revision today!!!!
ZZZZZ.
There's SMC meeting tomorrow so I guess the moment I reach home,
my eyes will be half-opened.

HAHA I'm sweating like mad now.
Wanna touch my perspiration? I told my mum that LOL.
I'm so gonna be hardworking today.
I'm always hardworking on the last day of holiday :)
Cus I slacked through the holidays :(
and when it's the last day,
I slapped, burned, pinched myself for slacking (not literally)
and then I work hard. For a day.
This happens all the time like seriously.

I don't wanna fail Napfa.
I don't wanna fail fail fail.
Because
fail = waste time training for retest = less time to study
and it's dumb when there's a chance for you to work hard and pass napfa but you dont wanna grab it.

kay shower!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-20T14:04:00.002+08:00

My dad shook his head as he saw me multi-tasking.
I was eating my packet of Lays, reading Biology notes, watching news and listening to radio.
All at the same time.
Girls are better at multi-tasking.
HAHA. AND I BET he was wondering how I did all that at the same time.

I'm abusing myself now.
Because I told myself.
IF I DONT FINISH THIS PIECE OF HOMEWORK,
I WONT HAVE LUNCH HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
LOL. okay im like eating fruits now. -.-
I'm a health freak HAHAHAHAHAHA.
oh, I ate at Mos Burger, Carls' JR and Macdonalds yesterday.
haha.

2011-03-20T13:53:00.001+08:00

我的生活旋绕着功课 SMC 睡觉。
等等，我在活着吗?

2011-03-18T22:23:00.004+08:00

I'm not listening to radio, but hearing it.
Meaning, nothing was registered in my brain.
Because I didnt want to listen to all the crap the DJ was talking about.
Sorry but radio ads dont work for me.

Sigh, I still havent started on my revision for my common tests that will commence in mid April I guess?
I forgot most O levels stuffs and I'm damn frustrated now.
Because there are more things which I just can't understand now
as compared to o levels.
Lecture is like taking down all the points the lecturer said, whether you understand them or not.
and then go home, digest it.
You can't even get yr questions answered the moment they pop up.
You'll have to wait until a few days later when you have tutorials then you can start clearing all those qns.
I totally hate this.
Okay, maybe I'm still not used to it.
Maybe.

ahh I really miss secondary school life.
Reaching home at 7 was so rare then.
But now, it's like a normal thing.

There are still a lot A LOT A LOT of stuffs for me to complete.
AND I ACTUALLY NAIVELY THOUGHT THAT JC STUDENTS DONT HAVE TO DO FILING.
I WAS TERRIBLY WRONG.
WTH, we must still file all our notes?!
ARGH I HATE FILING AND WRITING CONTENT PAGE WHICH I WILL NEVER TAKE A SECOND GLANCE.
:(
sucks to be me.

2011-03-18T09:47:00.002+08:00

Oh, gosh.
My mentees must think that I'm such a dumb mentor.
They sent me their research plan.
But it's classified into the junk folder.
So being a real stupid person, I would never check my junk folder.
Until today I have the sudden urge to do so,
only to find the email that is sent to me on Sunday.
Luckily they did two, separately.
So I've already marked the first one.
AH IM DUMB LOL.

It's just weird, to send email now and then.

Oh yeah, I finished my enzyme online lecture.
Like FINALLY.
But I still have a lot of work to do :(
I like sleeping at 11 and waking up at 8.
That's like nine hours of sleep man.
OMG. I WILL MISS MARCH HOLIDAYS A LOT.
IT'S ENDING IN TWO DAYS WTH.
OKAY. TIME FOR HOMEWORK AGAIN.

2011-03-16T12:05:00.001+08:00

It's Wednesday already.
I'm left with four days.
yeah wth.

Time for work.

2011-03-15T09:23:00.002+08:00

I read the newspaper (unbelievable)
which says that female who drinks a cup of coffee every day has lower chances to getting stroke.
Hey, that's me!!!!
Just that I don't drink during the weekends,
cus i wanna have a good long sleep after 5 sleep-deprived days.
SO YEAH. HOORAY.
And that's my article for my gp informal file.
HAHA.
Okay crap.

4E3 outing later.
and shit i hate myself for slacking.
cus i havent even touched my biology homework
which is as high as a mountain.
OMG. haiya. whatever. wait till i come back from 4e3 outing.
LOL.

2011-03-14T08:13:00.003+08:00

LOL I DIDNT KNOW TRAINING FOR NAPFA IS THAT TOUGH MAN.
I WENT JOGGING JUST NOW AND I NEARLY DIED ON MY WAY HOME.
WTH ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

I'm quitting school seriously because of napfa.
I'm just not fit and I like it this way.
I don't wanna change and let muscles grow like mutated cells.

okay i'm going library later with mighty mui.
i must complete my homework like before i-dont-know.
ahhhh seriously.
I woke up at 7am okay!
I'm such a healthy person who hasn't had her breakfast since i reached home at 8am. -.-

and is there a SMC camp? NO? OMG :(
I think no since I didnt hear anything abt it.
SAD.

Natalie's the president of baked potatoes.
Yes, it's the Little Professor again.

2011-03-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

Im kinda despressed after reading news and watching the videos abt the japan quake and tsunami.
its like one disaster after another when the nuclear plant exploded.
everyone in the world stopped what they were doing and paid much attention to the news, whether on tv, paper or the net.

Questions like 'Is the world really coming to an end as predicted in 2012?', 'Are humans really vulnerable towards natural disasters?', 'Is there anything we can do to help?' and 'Are we living in a world that can be engulfed by natural disasters anytime?' can't help but to surface in my mind.

Maybe it's because that in recemt years, im paying more attention to such news, i feel that natural disasters are occurring more often now.

What is happening to our world?
I really wonder.
And I pray for the safety of the missing Japanese and all other Japanese in the days to come.

2011-03-12T10:19:00.002+08:00

It's the March holidays! Like finaaaally.
This week was damn busy for me.
I reached home at earliest 5pm+ everyday.
and on Wednesday, I reached home at 7pm+
LOL. Because there was Little Professor~
Omg, i'm starting to like my mentees!
They're so cute and crazy.
and ALL OF THEM like practicals.
as compared to theory la.
So last week, i was having a hard time catching their attention
cus it's all theory part.
AND IM 40%+ INTROVERT.
then i have to fake my enthusiasm
haha what a nice experience being a clown and a mentor.

But putting that aside, they're so fun and nice on wednesday!!!!
We played with tomato, potato, papaya and lemon juices and DICPIP.
HAHA. I only managed to touch DCPIP when i was sec 4!
WTH and they're only primary 5!!!!
haha and they're so cute when using the dropper.
I have to teach them how to use it haha, cus each time they try,
they suck up all the air.
hoho, so cute.
But this will definitely help them in future practicals in sec school.
I was kinda sad last week, cus they ignored me :( i was reflecting on myself okay.
but now, nope, i dun feel that way any more.
HAHA. and next next week, there will be fingerprint & blood test!
WTH I DIDNT DO THAT AT ALL WHEN I WAS IN SEC SCHOOL OR EVEN IN JC!
WTH MAN! UNFAIR!!!!
anw i did it yesterday. haha. but only the fingerprint part.
omg the ____ powder made my head hurt.
I wanna do the blood test too!

It's always like that.
Everytime you get closer with new friends,
something will happen to separate you from them.
which is damn cruel.
Im saying this cus Little Professor will end in 2 weeks' time.
excluding the March holidays.
and they didnt add me in Facebook like what they said! -.-
and and and! One of my mentees has the same birthday as me!
OMG. I was searching for someone like that for the past 16 years!
HAHA.

okay and on that day itself (what a busy day)
I had to rush back home to START doing the pre-PW ppt slides which were due the day after.
omg. i completed them at about 11pm, which was when I can't help but to sleep
w/o revising/doing homework/reading lecture notes for the lectures on Thurday.
I merely completed my PW.
Totally regretted it.
Cus I usually wake at at 1am+ to do all these when i accidentally fall asleep.
which is as good as killing yr liver all that.
But on that day, I didn't. LOL.

SADLY, ON THAT DAY ITSELF. OMG I HATE WEDNESDAYS.
I had land PE cus I can't go for swim PE because of you-know-what.
So I ran for like 20 rounds. HAHA. Nope, not that track.
But in the sports complex. Which is tormenting for people like me who dont exercise at all. the 20 rounds include running, climbing and and down the stairs.
There was no supervision at all.
So imagine the amount of integrity i have. and perseverance.
HAHA. I didnt do the crunches though. because of my muscle ache from Monday's PE. LOL.
I had muscle ache on Thursday and Friday and climbing the stairs was -.-

Okay... After a few weeks in AC.
There are things I like abt AC as compared to Huayi. (WTH ALMOST NO ONE KNOWS WHERE HUAYI IS)
1. There's lift.
2. There's SMC.
3. The classrooms are air-conditioned.
4. The uniform is damn NICE.
5. They follow strictly to the practical schedule. I had like 3 chemistry practicals and 2 biology practicals already. and on top of that, we practised our chem planning question after each practical. HAHA I LIKE PRACTICALS. As if! LOL. I lost all my marks for the accuracy part for ALL THREE TITRATIONS.
6. I found people who speak chinese. ^^
7. Almost everyone in AC speaks English. Can improve my English!!!
8. I didnt have to use my phone so secretly as if I'm committing some crimes.

Okay i think that's abt it.
Things that i dislike AC are like. ahem. I wont say it here.
But it's expected la.
there are san-bas everywhere.
and people usually dont like them.
So too bad. AWWW I FEEL SO SAD FOR YOU.

Okay I have about 20 pieces of homework.
And i don't know where to start.
and you know you know.
For pw, i have to read the famous 孙子兵法.
I dont know which language to choose seriously.
if it's chinese, it's so chim for me to even understand and needless to day, translate it into english.
-.- AND WTH MY CHINESE SUDDENLY BECOME SO LOUSY.
I HATE IT MAN. DAMN LOUSY.
and some of my pronunciation sucks! -.-

I hope that the people in Japan will have to strength to continue
with their lives and rebuild their homes after the devastating catastrophe.
It's shallow of me to say this so easily but I really mean it.

2011-03-06T17:22:00.002+08:00

Omg my chinese sucks now.
I spent like a few hours doing the compo.
and it's only three pages. WTH?!
I'm like translating eng to chi while writing it. (Nope, I'm not proud of it.)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
My chinese cannot be that lousy!
!@#$
wth.
Please, I need an A for Chinese a levels! :(

im so busy now that im going bonkers.
I have like
little professor (lasts for a month!)
pre-pw stuffs
school work
and now... biomedical week coming up.
OMG MAN IM GOING CRAZY.
I cannot neglect my school work.
I'm still left with a lot of tutorials to do and
lecture notes to read.
and this that this.
wth man. this sucks.
I didnt expect it to be that sucky and busy.
I didnt expect jc life to be like that
I didnt expect SMC to be such a busy CCA.
I didnt expect myself to be such a slow worker.
I didnt expect that it's now 5.24pm and I still have homework not done :(

What's O levels compared to A levels?
Nothing, seriously.
But still you can't underestimate it.
Cus we spent our lives studying for it like CRAZZEH even though it's "nothing".
A levels is just crazy a crazy exam that burns our lives away man.
Sigh, that's why it's called pre-university education.
Okay time for the next tutorial.
Once i start lagging behind, I will start struggling and never catch up.

March holidays, come save me.

2011-03-05T18:03:00.002+08:00

不聪明的笨脑袋给我很多问题。

Maths is tough.
I don't have Maths cells.
argh.
why did i even take h2 maths LOL.
But at least it's better than h2 econs.
argh whatever.
I'm gonna persevere and do my tutorials :(
Last week to march holidays ^^

and my mentees didnt reply me :(
wth. It's like talking to wall.

2011-02-26T19:11:00.003+08:00

OMG. I feel that today's Biomedical Symposium was a success man.
Maybe cus i stayed in my assigned room for like 5 hours?
HAHA. Omg I've never been in a part of a big national event before.
But we spent quite a long time preparing for this lol.
im like a member only. not even organising team.
and im alr so tired and busy like crazy.
went home at like 10pm ytd.
hungry like crazy.
LOL. and the event ended like 6 something.
but i went home at 4? LOL HAHA!
damn sleepy now.

it's like damn common for me to doze off when studying.
argh hate it lol.
damn busy. and i hate chinese lessons! GOSH.
there's one that lasts for 1h 20 mins!!!!!
I LOVE CHINESE BUT I HATE CHINESE LESSON. LOL!
OKAY I SHALL. EAT. SLEEP. DO TUTORIAL. REVISE. SLEEP.
HAHAHA there was once when i fell asleep for three times in a night. not counting the usual one.
OMG LIKE LOL. and each lasts for an hour plus.
like crazy. end up i didnt do much thing that night.
wth man. im like starting my work at night everyday :(

but i love SMC.
I dont want to have any position though.
just let me do all the chores man.
hahahaha.
and the ppl in SMC are damn nice
esp the scholars and ppl from other countries HAHAHAHAHA.

2011-02-23T02:31:00.002+08:00

When there are too many things to do and there's too little time,
you know something is seriously wrong.
with your time management, efficiency, whatever.
it's only the start of JC1 and im alr struggling.
i dont know what will become of me when i got into jc2.
and that is only if i got in.
-.-
i hate pe. wth man.
im just not fit and i hate running!
and there's cross country tmr.
shit -.-
bet i'll be the last one to return.
somemore it's after school. which means i will reach home like 7 or smth? -.-
im still trying to adapt...
aww i miss 4e3!!!!

2011-02-14T18:15:00.000+08:00

i know that the moment i said 'i like bio',
there would be people who would start hating me.
whatever kay.
why do i have to be the same as others? -.-

its just so diff.
maybe i start stop thinking that everything
is the same as huayi.
because its a world we all dont know
in the first place.

okay happy valentine's day!
its just a normal day when you dun have anyone to spend with.

2011-02-13T19:43:00.002+08:00

我的世界以味道分类。

心情好的味道。
星期五的味道。
成就感的味道。
放学的味道。

世界末日的味道。
星期一的味道。
失败的味道。
考试的味道。
懒散的味道。
上一次生病的味道，
有一股无能为力的味道
加上身体和病菌在作战的味道。

‘O’水准的味道。
空气中弥漫着一种难以形容的香味。
十分讽刺。
同时似乎也轻轻的告诉我们
要坚持。
奇怪的是，‘O’水准一过，
我再也找不到这种味道了。

而最让我怀念的是
童年的味道。
那种牵着妈妈的手，穿过公园的味道。
是一种。。。
无忧无虑和简单的味道。
却让我这么难以忘怀。
我们都很清楚，它在忙碌生活中消失了。。。
天知道为什么我今天这么感性。

Okay this is lame.
and i realised how lousy my chinese is.
it was damn tough for me to type all these.
I couldnt even get the hanyupinyin right.
wth man. i must improve my chinese.
and, it doesnt mean that my chinese can be lousy just because im in acjc.
and it will not be the reason why i will hate chinese, that is if i will.
above is just a lame thing i thought of when i was bathing today.
HAHAHAHA.
i got flu today so yeah. i didnt study much.
and im wasting time here?! WTH man.
argh i suck.

2011-02-12T11:08:00.003+08:00

I was nearly late yesterday.
HAHA thank goodness it's NEARLY.
Cus i woke up late. at 6. instead of my usual 5.30 to 5.40. LOL.
that's the snooze period.
wth i can't even bathe i feel so dirty!
I merely studied until 12+ the night before and i woke up late?!
what crap is this.
it's only 12+ !!
okay my time management is still lousy.
i realised i can only conc in a library.
be it a noisy library or what
HAHA.
okay zai shuo zai shuo.
and wth are they giving us maths qns to practise or not?!
-.-
and now, i hope that my class will not have
THAT kind of people.
and that... I can get good teachers who will guide me through
these two years and towards the end, which is a levels.
and of cus, survive in ac.

2011-02-10T18:52:00.002+08:00

It's only the second day of lecture and i'm already struggling.
wth man. i could barely follow the math lecture.
it's like in the past during sec school,
you can daydream for a while but you still can understand and follow the lesson.
but now, you must be super attentive or else
you can't even understand what the lecturer is talking abt
and he will be alr at the next page.
wth. i was taking down notes, highlighting impt points and listening to what the lecturer was saying.
all at the same time. and today. plus drawing graphs like super fast. then copy again.
sorry but i still cant execute
the "active listening and passive copying" skill yet.
argh. wonder how i will survive.
cus the lecture is damn fast.

im starting to feel stressed alr.
and i love my bio lecturer.
but it's only temporary.
zzz.

since im feeling so stressed,
i shall do the MBTI test now.
HAHA. sort of personality test.
and, i want to get math assessment book.
it's like, they dun give us qns to practise.
or maybe not yet.
i dunno.
but i dun feel secure without practising after every lesson.

but still. im proud to be an AC student.
HAHA!
i will work like damn hard to stay in ac.

2011-02-08T21:13:00.003+08:00

I'm not dead! Yet.
Still getting used to the ac environment and culture.
Lectures will start tomorrow. The whole day.
argh, i'll be damn busy.
Still trying to get used to read newspaper everyday.
Straits Times.
Took me more than an hour. and im still not done reading.
nice one man.
And every teacher in ac is telling us how tough a levels is going to be.
It's not like o levels anymore, whereby you can mug like crazy and get into ac. even if it's last min.
gosh. then they are damn smart. srsly.
I didnt mug last min. but like crazy.
and barely got into ac.
ahhh.
In huayi you can get top but when you get into ac,
be contented you still have a place in there. even if it's last.

I'm gonna choose CCA tomorrow.
It's gonna be a different one man.
HAHAHA MAYBE I'LL JOIN SPORTS.
AND DIE. LOL.
OKAY BYE. I. Must. Start. Reading. My. Lecture. Notes. NOW.

2011-01-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

wth why am i even coughing now?
noooooooooo.
okay tmr 8am.
i'll know which school im going.
PLEASE BE AC.
It's kinda cool. to be informed by sms.
hahhaaa.
AND I hope i wont be ostracised in ac wth.
and study hard. i dun expect myself to be the best or what la.
but at least, let me get promoted to jc2 and get satisfying results.

there will not be any
ryewook/suju/nichkhun/2pm/jaychou/zyt/whatever
in these two years.
okay.. erm. maybe once in a while...
if not really no life leh!
ryeowook gave me power.
OMG HE'S SO CUTEEEE.
LOL. saw an interview of suju-m
HAHAH SO CUTE.
and he can speak a little mandarin!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
okay ahem.
I wont be distracted!

I will work hard!
I will survive in this english-speaking angmoh school!
I will turn the whole school over to find some good friends!
I will be in the same class as yj, sy and lynn!
I will improve my lousy english!
I will pass my GP with flying colours!
I will get into university!
I will love biology even more!
I will do well in Math!
I will be motivated!
I will make library my second home!
I will do well for a levels!
I will.

Okay stop it. very irritating.

last three days of work.
i'll miss my colleagues whom i got closer with only recently!
AND FAREWELL, SUCKERS. HAHAHAHAHA.
Indeed, there are sucky people EVERYWHERE.
这是一件司空见惯的事.
okay that sounds so pri school.

2011-01-22T22:50:00.001+08:00

Im. Damn. Freaking. Tired. Because. Of. Work.

12 hours for the weekend omg going to die.

and. my boss is a da hao ren!
she let me take leave!
4 days for orientation (following ac calender)
and a day for lessons on cny eve.
ive no idea why i assumed that cny eve
is a public holiday.
i hate people who assume stuffs!
I HATE MYSELF!!!!
lol. so cny eve got school!!!
wth i told my boss i can work on cny earlier on when i told her abt the orientation.
stupid me lor.
i really think ive a pea-sized brain -.-
but luckily she allow!
if not i die man.
some more is near cny.
cfm busy like crazy.
wahhhh~
da hao ren!!
but too bad after my alevel
im going to find a more higher-paying job
hoho. i want go uni okay
and buy this that and this ^^

okay very sleepy alr
byebye

2011-01-22T00:38:00.000+08:00

Hello.
you know what?

Almost everyone at my work place likes to drag their feet.
Stop influencing me!

Okay bye.

It's been a long time...
A long time since I've had a nice long chat.
I. Feel. Sad. :( :( :(

2011-01-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

"You know why people still smoke when they put such pictures on it?"

"Because they are retarded"

I overheard this when a guy was looking at the disgusting photos on the
cigarettes. he was telling his friend/gf/wife.
totally agree.
Which means. my dad is retarded HAHAHAHA.
people think it's cool to smoke.
but i think it's SO COOL
when you get all those related diseases caused by smoking
and on your dying bed. :D

2011-01-18T23:40:00.002+08:00

OMG. today i saw a very shuai guy!
he's got the face shape that i like!
It's like zyt's or gao yixiang's face shape.
the long long one. then can see the bone below the ear one.
DAMN NICE OKAY.
LOL VERY SHUAI.
but his flaw is that. he has piercing. but one only LOL
which is the only flaw.
OMG SO SHUAI.
HAHAHAHAHHAA.
And he is pimple-less.
and he talked to me!
LOL LOL. but like. asked if got parking coupon. -.-
wth man. then when i looked up.
i xia dao man. cus i was thinking.
HOW COME HIS COMPLEXION SO GOOD AND SO SHUAI?!
LOL. I SOUND LIKE A BIAN TAI BUT IT'S TRUE.
HAHA I HOPE HE GOES ACJC! (if i go in la)
Cus he's abt my age.
Sorry but i look at appearance please.
BUT. personality is still the most impt thing.
haha. now still can fa hua chi.
but when school starts. NOPE I CANT.

wah....
okay i might even forget this tomorrow when i get busy with work.
it's just like.
some chio scenery along the journey that made you stop for a little while.
but afterwards, you'll continue with it.
just an analogy...
wah but i cant stop thinking!
okay siao alr.

2011-01-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

My phone is finally back lol.
sent it for repair.
but like. the touch screen is not as sensitive as before -.-
and. i bought a planner!
damn exp. its $28.
im just a poor person
after working and not having any pocket money
then i realise everything needs money.
srsly. spent the most on food
if im rich,
ill buy this that and this!
but fact is, im not..
kay off for work!
its for the money!!!

i love my planner. ^^
*BIG SMILEY*
LOL bimbotic.

2011-01-17T13:07:00.002+08:00

The bad thing about working and getting pay is that
you get to pay most of your life expenses.
Simply because your parents, or at least, MY PARENTS
think that I'm rich enough to do so.
Now, I've spent more than half of my pay already.
The food alone made me spend so much!
IF ONLY I DIDN'T HAVE TO EAT! LOL!
Then my passbook is like.
only the withdrawn column is filled up.
the deposited one is like. one or two.
argh! I'm so poor now and I'm still going out tomorrow!
I'm now preparing for school okay.
socks, umbrella, planner.
and shoes.
LOL.
It's only when you see your bank account left with so little money
then you will regret spending SO MUCH MONEY.
ARGH HATE MYSELF.
and later I still have to help my bro (the real one)
buy his deodorant!
wth im not even your girlf.
cant you just buy it yrself.............................
very sian. cus im damn poor now.
when is the next payday?!
next month... -.-
and it's when school starts.
YAY IT'S RAINING. SO...
I'll buy it later~

2011-01-15T23:07:00.002+08:00

argh. i told my mum that my chance of getting into acjc is only 50%.
someone in acjc said that.
then she asked if they look at l1r5 or no. of A1s.
i told her they only look at l1r5.
then she was like
"HUH?! Then what for you get so many A1?! Also NO USE."
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
she's been so discouragimh ever since olevel wth.
each time i tell her how i feel abt the paper or how
many careless mistakes i made.
she will say.
DIE ALR DIE ALR.
Then she will sound so disappointed.
and she will keep on sighing
-.-

then i overheard my parents saying
that i cant compete with all the elites in acjc.
if i got in la.
then they told me just score level position of about 100+ can alr.
cannot compare with the elites.
but it's kind of true la.
cus i worked so so so so hard to get top in a neighbourhood school.
whats more acjc is like an elite school.
but dun have to say until like that mah.
i have feelings one leh.
zzz.
make me feel so stupid.

2011-01-13T12:53:00.002+08:00

I HOPE I CAN GET IN ACJC.
Cus my 3rd choice is like ajc.
though that school is really not bad.
but. very troublesome leh.
yck leh. -.-
I hope i'll meet my pri school friends in ac!
btw i my choice 6 is no longer pjc.
LOL. what if i really cant go into first five choices then ended up in pjc LOL LOL.
and acjc cfm got angmoh! HAHAHAHAHA
I MEAN THE REAL ONE OKAY.
HAHAHAHAH.
Im gonna take biochem!
econs/geog. still not decided.
so troublesome.
after subject combination, i'll have to think abt which cca to take.
like -.- there will be cca exhibition right!
or cca day.

ah.
I kind of miss the first day of school feeling.
and there goes again,
i need to put in a lot of effort for my english.
during olevel.
im spending so much time on it.
at least more than before.
but still no A la.
too bad lol. my foundation is lousy in the first time.
the first time i really know abt nouns, adjectives and adverbs is when im in sec 1!!! WTH.
But im still lousy as compared to the crescent girls' students frm china who scored A1
after 2 years of studying eng.
damn smart.
what can i do when they find maths in singapore "a breeze".
omg. i never liked maths.
OKAY LA. MAYBE DURING LOWER SEC.
LOL.
OKAY. I SHALL WORK HARD NOW.
FOR MY ENG AND MY GP RESULTS.
AND HEARD THAT PW IS ONLY FOR A YEAR IN AC!!!!!
I read the AC website. i mean their blog.
called maniAC or something LOL.
wth i dun feel like going to work alr.
so boring esp when it rains.
and i have to deal with unreasonable lousy customers who treat you like an idiot or a servant.
seriously. -.-
argh. it's 13 now. 21 days left. including today.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
still a long way to go. -.-

2011-01-11T13:53:00.002+08:00

argh my phone sick alr.
sot alr. damn sian.
keep getting disconnected.
then need on off on off.
lousy. really.
wth it's new one leh walao.
now im using my old phone.
no ryeowook no kpop no nichkhun no whatever.
-.-
OKAY I WILL SUBMIT MY APPLICATION FORM TMR
AFTER I GO FOR OPEN HSE. IF I CAN TAKE LEAVE.
ARGH I FEEL SO BAD TO KEEP TAKING LEAVE.
kay whatever.
my future is much more impt.
hahahahahaha.

lousy phone.
make me lose my ryeowook. LOL.

2011-01-10T23:47:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA OLEVEL RESULTS TODAY.
IM SO SATISFIED
HOHOHO
but damn irritated cus my relative and dad keep asking me to go njc.
I DIE ALSO CANNOT GO IN LA.
1 pt difference is alot leh!
argh.
i dunno where to go srsly!
i hope i can take leave on wed so that i can go ac open hse to see.
i think i most prob go ac.
and when i graduate my eng will be my damn pro
provided i work hard.
HAHAHAHA I DUNNO YET SO VEXED.

But acjc school uniform so nice!
hahaha. and i love their cca you know you know.
there are so many clubs and societies to choose frm! like crazy
im going to choose one of them
i will never ever choose sports.
im not crazy yet.
so anw. i dunno. LOL.
*PRAY HARD* I wont meet arrogant people or hypocrites.
hate them hope they !@#$%.
LOL.

2011-01-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow i'll cry, scream.
or maybe i will just have no reaction.
OMG.
PLEASE.
argh. im always hungry
work is so sucky today
siao why got so many people!!!!
even when it rains wth.
and i love my friends more now!
cus i met someone who tries to make use of me.
wth.
it's so obvious im not stupid.
argh.
i'll leave that place after this month
HAHAHA. and study!!!!

2011-01-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA.
I thought i saw sy on the train.
so i went in.
then i cant see her anywhere in the train!
LOL.
but whatever im alr on it.
then i smsed her.
to find out that she got out of the train cus i didnt say
i reach alr.
LOL.
没有默契！
几年了! 拜托!!!
we know each other for 4 years alr leh.
sian. okay at least she was ONCE on the same train LOL HAHAHAHA.

okay bye.
LOL.
im broke :(
mon is the day!
ytd no dream. HURRAY!
before olevel.
i get dreams once in a month or something.
damn rare.
btw if my memory is good enough.
i once watched a tv programme and it said.
we dream every night.
it's just a matter of we remember it in the morning or not.
haiya whatever.
maybe i was too tired to remember such lame stuffs
when i have the whole geog book to memorize.
lousy i hope that's a pill to forget all the dreams abt olevel.
HAHA.

getting back results tmr.
WTH. it's tmr. -.-
PLEASE.
* PRAY HARD *
LET ME GET BELOW 10 PLEASE.
OMG.
WHAT IF I GET ABOVE 10.
BANG WALL MAN.
ARGH.
i hope i wont cry.

2011-01-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

three days...
what ive did for the past two years will show in my results.
omg im so scared. really.

if i do badly,
i wonder how will ms wong react
how will my school and classmates react
how my parents will react
how my relatives in sg will react
lastly. most importantly
how i will react. argh. i cant do badly
i musnt do badly
So we dont stop! (2!)
we cant stop! (p!)
till we reach the top!!!! (m!)

if i get 7 or less,
i'll go ac
if i get more than that,
ill go jj
if i get d7 for eng
i'll go poly sci course :(
i hope i can get single digit!!!!
i hope to get results like prelim!
im alr satisfied with it alr
at least my eng pass
at least i met my aims for other sub
argh
fan si le

forget it forget it
im so hungry now
so i shall eat and stop thinking abt it
for a while.

2011-01-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

back for chalet. 2d1n only.
wth chalet is the most unhealthy activity EVER.
cus im such a healthy person (HAHA) and i seldom get constipation.
BUT I GOT IT TODAY WTH.
no veggies no fruit no whatever.
only MEAT. :(
and sleep for like damn little.
argh.
my lifespan :( :( :(

ANW. the most fun thing is the chat abt plastic surgery and kpop!
hahaha yvonne is crazy abt the 2am guy.
funny. it's like me crazy abt ryeowook.
haha the chat is like so disgusting and funny.
abt plastic surgery.
HAHHA. i have no problems with ppl who went plastic surgery la.
but it's better when they admit they did it la hahhaa.
and i admire surgeons who help children with cleft lips/other deforms.
SALUTE!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA.
and i dun think i will go for plastic surgery in future.
cus i respect my genes LOL.
though i secretly. erm. nope. openly.
want to have sharper nose, more defined face,
tummy-less, slimmer legs, longer fingers and become taller.
HAHAHAHAHAA. no one is ever satisfied with his/her looks one la.
at least for me.
cus im such a superficial person who
always look out for looks first.
i mean for idol.
like ryeowook you know you know.
he didnt go for plastic surgery! HAHAHAHAHA.
I BET.
IT'S TRUE!
TIAN SHENG SO SHUAI DUN NEED TO HAVE ONE HAHAHAHA.
okay crazy.

kbox today.
the most leng jing kbox i've ever went.
haha.
okay end.
i ate nice ramen today + sushi.
damn nice the sushi!
but so exp -.-
HEHE.

and and. yihong showed me a youtube guy today.
the videos.
HAHAHAA HE'S SO CUTE.
LOL. i only know his name is ryan LOL.
i like the video about farts.
f to the a to the r to the t.
HAHAHAHA.
and the part about.
DENIAL.
all you have to do is to deny deny and deny.
HAHAH he speaks perf eng man.
so nice!
Im going to watch it!!!!!!!

and wgm dun have adam couple alr :( :( :(
without them wgm is like kinda meaningless alr leh...
cus they're so natural and everything
even in ep 1 they are not treating each other like stranger.
ahhhhhhhhh.
i must chiong everything before school starts.

2011-01-05T00:53:00.002+08:00

在梦里拼命挣扎想办法
才发现唯独把眼睛挣开
才能解脱。

I had a nightmare today.
regarding my results.
i dunno why.
but stupid enough,
the results are shown in bar chart form.
i mean for individual result.
like stupid, so hard to see my results in my dream.
bet i was frowning in my dream.
I saw. i got b3 for eng (OMG HOPE IT'S TRUE)
and b4 for biology.
and ridiculous. i got a B for chinese -.-
then i got a1 for humanities (HURRAY, but it's fake)
then i started staring at my biology results.
omg it's a b4.
then i started covering my eyes and CRY.
LOL. then i screamed 我什么都不要，我只要我的biology A1!!!!!!!
THEN. i woke up. OMG.
if not i tell i will jump down the building in my dreams and die in my dreams.
when i wake up.
PHEW. LUCKILY IT'S A DREAM.
but i found my eyes wet.
means. i really cried.
but it was real scary la.
b4 for biology.
sigh man.
luckily no one was home.
if not when my family hear me. they will think im crazy.
:(

2011-01-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

chalet! omg when i was at work today i was so stupid lol
i only realised i set my date as 2010 inside of 2011. -.-
haiya cus i got my phone on the first day of the year mah
then cant shi ying you know haha.
the main point is i thought chalet starts on tue cus it was stated there what.
then on my hp calender
it shows that today is sun
wth!!!
then i thought i crazy alr
cus i thought i assume today is mon
omg im really dumb man
damn ke xiao la
dunno what i doing -.-
some more i only realised it after two days

anw chalet is on wed wed wed okay!
the only thing i prepared is ziploc bags -.-
anw a colleague thought i got jie pi
cus i said we need to wase new clothes that we bought before wearing
wth everyone does that right!
nevermind...

and ppl at my work place say im too quiet.
haha! cus genrration gap la
they are so old and no common topic somemore.
like eg suju
dun have!
how to be not quiet?!
chat about the eggs how much?
haha.
the truth is.
i need time
its just weird to be too friendly
to a new friend
im not crazy

okay bye

2011-01-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAA.
i FINALLY know how to transfer alr!
my wallpaper is ryeowook!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
STUPID ME.
Okay i'm a slow learner.
so imagine how many brain cells i killed when i learn a new thing in school/at work.
argh.
haiya it's not me la.
it's my genes. its the GENES that make me like that.
so that's why. i know ive to work harder in order
to achieve what i want.
nothing drops from the sky.
only bird shit okay.
so i get kinda pissed off
when people assume something is easy for me.
IT'S NOT!
ZZZZ.
assume here assume there. -.-
okay. digressed.
okay whatever.
the main thing is..
i wanted to sleep at 11pm.
but after fussing around with my phone and com.
and it's now near 1am. -.-

AH SLEEP.

2011-01-02T23:48:00.001+08:00

:( im damn lousy.
i still still still dunno how to use my phone.
argh. i wanted to transfer ryeowook photos into my phone.
then i dunno how to!
cus need download what software.
and i only know this after i keep trying and trying.
stupid right.
argh.
lousy.

2011-01-02T13:24:00.004+08:00

im transferring my songs to my new phone from the old one via bluetooth.
cus my old phone simply.
怀得很彻底.
it cant be connected to the com anymore.
lousy LOL.
and i realised i have A LOT of jaychou songs hahahahahahaha.
which is good.
and ive zero korean songs LOL.
HAHAHAH WEIRD!
haiya man man lai.
kind of lazy.
im feeling kinda excited over my new phone.
haha. it's like. normal right. to be curious over new stuffs.
haiya whatever.
school's gonna start on 4th jan i heard.
i miss school. really.
the "holiday" is too long that it makes me forget the feeling i get when i study.
the passion also.
and i'm quite scared.
that i wont like studying anymore.

2011-01-01T22:39:00.001+08:00

i change phone alr! *BIG SMILEY*
HAHAHAHAHA.
it's samsung ^^
just trying to figure out how to use it.
anw. i want to dl sj theme!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i dunno how. haiya whatever.
as long as there's radio. HAHAHA.
and i will put alot of sj rw etc photos in my phone.
OKAY BYE HAHAHAHAA.
I'm super looking forward to class chalet!

2011-01-01T10:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR HAHAHAHAHA.
Everyone on facebook is crazy.
but kinda sad i still have to work today -.-
okay hope i can get a new phone either today or tomorrow.
HAHAHA WHAT SHOULD I GET HAHAHA.
so hungry... -.-

2010-12-31T23:06:00.003+08:00

想努力生活才会每天精疲力尽的结束每一天
让自己感觉到真实
但是，好累哦！
but it's worth it cus i got the money!
HAAHAHAHA.

have been busy with work.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
so tiring.
hahah.
anw. when i study less/dont study, i dream more!
HAHAHAHA.
but most of them dont make sense la.
alot about olevel and stuff. -.-
got some quite ridiculous.
i dreamt that the next day is my eng oral.
and i was doing eng compo like crazy.
then i suddenly realise the next day is my oral.
then shit! I have to go for oral with any practice.
then i woke up.
omg -.- 2 times alr.
i must be crazy.
okay whatever.
and i dont even know when will the results be released.
i dont feel like getting it back alr leh.

okay whatever.
today is the last day of 2010.
HAHAHA it feels like any other day.
and.
my heart still pounds like crazy when i see sj performance/hear sj songs.
it means. i'm still alive.

oh yeah. regarding my
AHEM.
upper respiratory tract infection.
i only recovered after a week.
it's considered quite long leh LOL.
i finished the whole bottle of cough syrup and
my cough is still not any better.
but at least. i'm damn healthy now haha.

ANW. WTH.
my phone. you know.
spoil again!
I'm going to change that alr HAHAHA.
and the zero and * button spoil also.
then the speaker also spoil.
means i cant hear the person from the side in a phone call.
lousy right! second time alr leh.
i'm so going to change my phone before chalet.
if not. i'm like living in a deserted island.
HAHAHA i'm so fu qian.

and. guaikia like me dont dye hair.
HAHAHAHA. it's a waste of money since i'm going jc.
if i can choose.
i will bleach it so that my white hair will disappear forever.
HAHAHAHA.

2010-12-11T21:13:00.003+08:00

wth im still sick.
so no work tmr.
my parents were telling me again to change job.
zzz wth. all i want to do now is to get back my olevel results, select a good jc and start studying.
and okay. to recover.
seriously leading this kind of aimless life is killing me.
it's like. you are not living at all.
without goals and everything.
thats why it doesnt feel real at all.
why am i wasting my time away. -.-
argh wait till i recover.
maybe i'll change job.
AGAIN.
wth.
haiya whatever it is, it's still sucky and laborious.

and my medicine is so strong!
I slept for like 14 hours ytd. crazy.
and my taste buds are all messed up.
and everything smells so disgusting!
ahhhhhhhhhh.
i miss school.
i hate work.
i hate doing so much work for that little money.
in future,
i want to exchange my skills/talent/knowledge for money.
but never labour.

anw. I'm so scared. that on the day when i get back my results,
i will not see what i wish/expect.
cus. anything can happen.
since the grade can be moderated.
and it's olevel.
what if i get lousy results.
omg.
i'll die man.
think im the only crazy woman thinking about stuffs like these now.

During school:

I MUST ENJOY LIFE LIKE CRAZY AFTER OLEVEL. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

After Olevel:

WTH when will school start?!?!

HAHAHAH humans are so unpredictable.

2010-12-10T20:17:00.002+08:00

wth i shouldnt even say i miss work.
now i feel so unwell -.-
damn sucky.
and i'm like coughing my lungs out.
anw i really dont want to take my medicine for flu/fever/whatever.
cus it causes drowsiness as well!
so this + cough syrup,
it's like 100% sleeping pill -.-
ah crap i think have fever again! AHHHHHHHHHHH.
I want to work!
I dont want to stay at home!

and my phlegm is so disgusting hahaha.

2010-12-10T17:13:00.002+08:00

HEY. I'm not dead yet.
Just. sick.
OKAY. ahem.
It's upper respiratory tract infection.
dunno why i am sick but anw.
I'm recovering alr.
half dead for the past two days.
the worst thing about being sick is that
you have to swallow pills.
damn sucky.
cus after 16 years of training.
i still have no idea how to swallow them properly.
seriously.
I would rather get injections.

now that my fever is gone.
im still left with antibiotics and cough syrup.
and! wth i'm still left with 11 antibiotic pills.
the most pathetic thing is that i went to see the doctor alone!
-.-

sigh why must i be sick!!!!
I feel like a pig sleeping the whole day.
and no matter how much i sleep, i still feel tired.
argh.
and i dunno why! My cough syrup makes me drowsy too.

anw i went to work in tue.
i earned $33! IM RICH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAA.
omg the ppl there are so nice!
and i made a new friend in the toilet!
HAHAHA. so random.
so. i'll continue working there alr.
and and! our grp is 3 ppl to 3 tables.
omg hahaa. cus got 2 including me are new and one regular.
i dunno why but it's less tiring.
ahhh i miss working there alr!
though i still get muscle ache la.
but at least it's much better
cus we were treated us humans.
wth. im supposed to work today one...
because of the stupid virus la.
lousy.
make me so bored now.

YEAH. I'm going to work on sunday! HAHAHAHA.
Guess i'll have to stop my cough syrup on that day.
cus it's really like sleeping pills -.-

2010-12-06T10:59:00.001+08:00

ive never. waited so long. for a reply.
wth. like a few hours before a reply.
wth how can a person take so long to reply?!
wth so when can i start working?!
AH im so bored.

2010-12-04T23:29:00.002+08:00

MNET! OMG.
Woke up at 4.30am today.
LIKE CRAZY.
Reached there at about 6am++
waited and waited until 6pm+
FINALLY IT STARTED
WTH DAMN SQUEEZY.
The people there are really crazy.
HELLO I don't even know you so please dont lean on me and my bag.
They simply just placed their arm on my shoulders.
then got one malay girl she leaned her whole body on me.
WTH I like nichkhun okay i'm not lesbian.
But we were damn lucky. we stood near the gate unknowingly
and when it opened, we were pushed near the stage!
HAHAHAHAHAA. even though when we reached there
at 6am+ there were already alot of people.

First was MBLAQ.
OMG the black-haired guy kept smiling and he's damn shuai!!!!
Then it was Miss A.
OMG I like the long-haired girl.
From china one haha.
then it was 2AM!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH.
I like 3 out of 4 of them!
HAHAHAA.
Jokwon did the HOOT ACTION.
The snsd one. hahaha funny.

Then it was beast.
wth i only know 3 out of the many songs they sang.
so it was quite boring for me.
THEN IT WAS 2PM!!!
OMG most of them were chanting 2pm 2pm 2pm.
HAHAHA Their performance was the LONGEST.
even had video clip of their rehearsals.
and they gave roses and lollipops.
BY THROWING LA.
OMG VERY CHAOTIC AND HIGH.
HAHAHA I was literally staring at nichkhun for the whole of 2pm performance.
Like crazy, how can a person be THAT shuai.
He was VERY muscular.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
OMG.
worth it!!!!
So jidong now i think i can't sleep.

oh ya. we made new friends.
2 of them. 18 yrs old.
BUT we dont know their names hahahaha.
they are so crazy haha.

okay now what i got:
bruises on my ankle, wth it's getting bigger too.
bag ache
smelly all over. Bathed super long today.
imagine you are surrounded by sweaty and crazy people for 4 hours.
siao one. and i was squeezed further and further away from lynn they all.
nevermind, i can still be high on my own.

Okay joke of the day:
Kenneth's pizza and last him for a day.
HAHAHAHA.
做仙. we even watched movie on dvd player.
but end up ignoring it.
and that includes HP and the half-blood prince!
siao liao.

ah the moment i close my eyes,
i saw nichkhun and the mblaq guy.
seriously his 笑容真的很迷人!
HUA CHI.
OKAY. DAMN LONG POST.
HAHAHAHA.
I wont forget i saw
Mblaq, miss a, beast, 2am/pm in persons!!!
ESP NICHKHUN.
but haiya he got victoria alr.
LOL WTH as if i got chance.
like shit.
I AM NOT LESBIAN.
WTH.
I got the feeling of being molested.
BY A GIRL.
SICK.
argh.
WTH MAN. zzz

2010-12-02T14:13:00.000+08:00

I've moved my previous posts to another blog.
and privated it.
HAHA.
SO TOO BAD if you didnt see that.

I just want previous posts to stay as a history.